|Sunday, March 5th, 2006|
why the fucking need to block the happy
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: raging on the inside
|Sunday, November 20th, 2005|
| You scored as Hermione Granger. |
Fred or George Weasley
Which Witch/Wizard are you?
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|Sunday, May 23rd, 2004|
|Friday, May 21st, 2004|
i've been doing a lot of really stupid stuff to forget about this
it's not helping
i don't like this
does he care a little bit?
did i make a mistake?
|Wednesday, May 19th, 2004|
is this really how this will end?
it hurts so much
|Friday, May 14th, 2004|
i didn't imagine things would be this way
i had a rough week and i need it to be over
i really feel a need to go......
we'll see,i guess,how things will go
tesknie za jedynka
and where is the figo?
|Wednesday, May 5th, 2004|
still feelin' good
but what happened to the figo,an overdose perhaps?
|Saturday, May 1st, 2004|
|it doesn't take much to make me happy
i feel fabulous
i'm in ultra happy mode
i feel like life is beautiful
who knew that something like a couple of drunken calls could make me so happy,that's silly like i like it
i'm easy like a sunday morning
this should stay this happy
hurray for figo,i love it when he makes me this happy
|Tuesday, April 27th, 2004|
|this is the good stuff good stuff
perhaps all is changing to good
i'm having a great time
i like to be happy
i much prefer this state over the not so happy and sad one
i hula-hooped,i ate strawberries,i walked plenty on a sunny day
i did things that make me happy in winnipeg
it's so good to be back,i'd like to stay for longer with my happy self
being a girl is great,but being the luckiest girl rocks
|Friday, April 16th, 2004|
|the day i had
an enjoyable day it was
i got a great brazilian,and a nice french manicure(how international)
i took a nice walk down corydon and osborne and finally made plans for the martini bar next friday with alison
a funny thing happened today,when i was walking to downtown i decided to call vince from the pay phone i was passing,i called and it was busy twice...why?...because he was calling me at the exact same time oooooooo,craziness
(anitko,is seeing unavailable men outside their workplace legal?
ps me and my menstrual cycle are in a fight,and unfortunately i can't win
|Thursday, April 15th, 2004|
i woke up this morning and couldn't fall asleep for a while
when i finally did i had this great dream where figo bought w strawberry sundae for me for breakfast of the next day,then he came to lie on top of me and said something about sleepy women and when i got all excited the stupid alarm rang,grrr
not in reality
not in dreams
i don't ever get the figo?
|Wednesday, April 14th, 2004|
today was the day that figo called....to tell me that he's going to be busy for some days(huh?)but he wants to get together on sunday for some food
sure,that sounds nice
i called martian today to tell him that we're done being friends
and he wrote me an email trying to odwrocic kota ogonem,bitch
i can't believe i will not be available for sex on sunday,that's some plenty of bad luck
|such a tough guy
i did it!
last night i was a little drunk and i didn't call him!
i didn't even cry!
i'm such a superhero!
|Tuesday, April 13th, 2004|
|so much lighter
that feels good
i just deleted martian and baila
it feels good
perhaps now i move on(tomorrow i must call martian and tell him what i need to)
so that's all now
and still without figo
i can not believe that i couldn't fall asleep last night
i couldn't remove figo from my head
i kind of feel like i'm left with nothing here
i really need to be having sex
and i would prefer if it was with him
can he really go that long without it or is he for serious fucking other girls(i wonder how many)
why can't i just not like him
i was so close to calling last night,so close,but i didn't
i feel like i'm trying to quit a bad habit,not forget about a boy,this is silly
|Monday, April 12th, 2004|
|and that's that
so monday is almost done
and i have a new hula hoop
so that's good
i took the number off the fridge
and now i wait(while doing my thing)
sure i can do this
|perhaps it's nice
it seems like a nice beginning
i had a little bit of a jog some tanning
now perhaps i take care of a few calls and have a shower
|that was fabulous
i can't believe it,that was so awesome
my dad and i had one of our best conversations since at least 6 months
it was just so like back in the day
funny cause he was hung over i was coming off a buzz,i guess we were on the same wavelength,it was so nice
i really hope this portugal thing works out,then i'll see him
it's definitely time
wow that really made me happy on such a sad day
no matter what THIS always works out,how beautiful
|Sunday, April 11th, 2004|
|constant figo thoughts
it's easter and i'm very sad
i woke up like this
i had some weired dreams(chasing the figo)
i still can't believe that he made me wait 12 days before calling after i had told him how i feel about him
and then he made me wait again and then again
i wonder if he realizes that he does this or is it by accident that he makes me feel like this
|Saturday, April 10th, 2004|
|how is this ok?
it's not fair to me
BUT NOTHING CAN CHANGE!!!
how does that make sense?
funny how i'm having all these fights with him without him
what in the world am i thinking?
why do i stick around for this?really why?
perhaps other boys have similar sexual habits and can make me happy like he does when he does
really i'm feeling pretty lonely now,not alone,just lonely(like friend wise)
i kind of feel like everyone is throwing their theory into my head,trying to make me believe things that are not true
sometimes i just want someone to listen to me instead of teaching me life
when did everyone become such an expert on living?
hey figo are you fucking other girls?